Life

(Warning lots of very random thoughts going through my head lately)

Life has been super busy and lazy at the same time lately. The holidays were good to us and I'm so glad Tim has a good job this year that we could get some presents for Kenneth's birthday and Christmas. Despite him having a good job I hate the hours he had Christmas week. I spent that time with my family so that I wouldn't be so lonely. This last week the hours were much better, but I came to realize how use I became to having Tim around more in the morning to help with Kenneth.

Those who know me know I am not a morning person. I take my time and very  rarely wake up ready to talk. Give me an hour and some food and I'm all better. I'm glad that school has started and that I now will have that time in the morning to get ready before going to school and work on homework as well before Tim has to leave for work.

I'm so glad to be back in school to learn again and to get a break every day for just an hour or so from Kenneth. I love him so much and love spending time with him, but with his teeth having been coming in for the last few months constantly I need a break from the whining. I feel so bad for the little guy. His last two are almost through until his two year molars. He's gotten the rest of his teeth early so I wouldn't be surprised if he got those early too. I'm mostly ready to get back to school since I'm finally on my 5th semester and if all goes right I should be done in a year and 3 months! Tim will hopefully be done shortly there after.

One thing I'm most excited about being done is moving away from Rexburg and Tim having a career not just a job. I'm anxious at what that future holds though since who knows if he'll have a job right away. Only one of my siblings has been that fortunate. The rest has had to wait a little bit and thankfully had a job to make ends meet until then. We're hoping he'll have something right away but you never know for sure.

A great thing about moving away from Rexburg will be buying a house. I have enjoyed the apartments we're in but having to be quiet around neighbors gets old quick and having done this for the past 3 years I'm sick of it. I'm hoping in two years we'll both be done with school and Tim will have a good enough job that us going house hunting won't just be for fun and that it can actually happen. I love going to visit my family and only hearing the noise that they are making. We have had some good neighbors. We loved the neighbors who lived above us in our first apartment in Hyde Park. They were so quiet and we only ever heard them when either they vacuumed or were walking on the linoleum. We also generally try to like our neighbors from the get go. But lately with us being home a lot more during the day and with me being home usually alone at night it gets so tough, especially when they wake us up in the morning. Maybe it's jealousy that they have some one to talk to and after Kenneth goes to bed I usually just have homework or the tv to keep me busy. Who knows it will hopefully all change when Tim is back in school and home more!

I am officially wishing my life away which my mom always tells me not to do. I do enjoy each day as much as I can but looking forward to something is half the fun in life sometimes. I most certainly am looking forward to when Kenneth can communicate to me instead of whine, teaching him sign language has helped that some but he needs to learn more. I also look forward to him walking, I'm jealous of my friends who's little ones are already walking around and know how to sit up on their own. Kenneth cracks me up still with his little scoot he does but I really want a toddler who becomes independent. I'm sure when I'm at that stage I'll regret it but right now it seems forever and ever away.