This semester thus far has been busy and then not busy at the same time.. How does that happen you may ask. I'll tell you it all comes from the different classes I'm taking. Some of them I love and go figure they're the ones I got to pick to take and not the two forced upon me from foundation classes.
I generally have liked my foundations classes. English 101 not so much but I purposely picked a class that only met once a week. This was a wise decision for me since I could focus on most of my homework before I had to worry about the homework. This semester I'm taking English 201 and chose to take it online. I really don't know what I was thinking when I decided that besides not wanting to spend more time away from Kenneth. Now I'm wishing I was in an actual class!
Another class that I am despising right now is Robotics. I only took it because Tim said it would be fun. For him it would be. He'd be reading about things he already knows a lot about and would get to play with robots the one day a week we have class. For me this was a serious mistake, I don't understand half the things the reading talks about just vaguely remember hearing about them from Tim. Then I go to class and am expected to actually help my group build a robot to do challenges.Half the time I feel like I just sit there and do nothing until I think of something and luckily most of time it actually works.
The biggest problem I'm having with both of these classes is getting my homework done in time each week. Normally I'm on top of it and have plenty of time to spare and do the things I actually want to do. Moving the second weekend of the semester and not having internet here has messed me up. Luckily Tim was smart and kept our modem for our internet when we had it previously and so our internet was able to get up lots faster then it otherwise would have. I'm really really hoping that this weekend is the week that I can get on top of all my homework and enjoy my Sunday afternoon with my son.
That's another thing that's been hard for me I feel like I get frustrated with Kenneth a lot faster then I use to. Usually because he wants to play with my laptop while I'm on it trying to do homework. He doesn't quite understand the word no yet and I don't know what else to do. Maybe I'll start using Tim's desk to do homework. Then Kenneth can't reach my laptop. I feel bad when I get frustrated at him because I know he's only interested in it because he sees so many people around him on their devices all the time. I need to remember that he's a curious little boy and wants to spend time with mom. I should be soaking this time up since I know it won't last forever.
On top of it all I really miss Tim! Yes I get to see him but I feel like that's all it is. I try to do as little of homework as possible on his days off so I can actually spend time with him but I don't think that can happen much longer without me feeling like I'm always doing homework. I really really really can't wait for the end of March to get here! Tim can quite his job with the ridiculos hours and days and be home with us more. Yes I realize he'll still have school and work but he'll at least be home at night with me. I really miss that. I feel like a single mom most nights and the only way I make it through most days is knowing that eventually Kenneth will go to bed and I can relax for a little bit.
Sorry I needed to rant! If you can't tell I really love both Tim and Kenneth a lot and am thankful the Lord put them both in my life.I know this time is short but a girl can only do so much before she starts wondering when it will end.
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