A little update

I had something all written but decided it was probably a TMI. I like to have details in my writing because I like remembering. So that I will keep for myself to remember.

Thursday was a tough day for me, I was still processing. Even though I wanted to just stay in bed all day and do nothing. Obviously with Kenneth alone I couldn't do that. Heavenly Father was wise sending me this boy to help me during this time. I went to class and that was a good decision. After class I hung out with Caci (my little brother's fiance) until she had to go. Tim was home shortly after. I was glad to have him, I was sad and needed my husband to just help me process more.

Friday I made the tough decision and called the doctor. That was so hard, in some ways I felt like I was giving up hope. But now I know if I had waited for my body to take care of everything depending on how long that took it would have been so much harder.

I decided on the medicine, not wanting to go through a d&c without having Tim there and with his schedule that couldn't happen. :( I took it on my way to my parents. Mom was so much help with Kenneth. She got him ready for bed, which I could have done but the cramping was getting bad. So bad I took some Ibprofen around that time and then took Tylenol a couple hours later. I went to bed shortly after taking the Tylenol but didn't fall asleep for quite a while. Mom checked on me throughout the night. She wanted to make sure I wasn't bleeding too much.

Saturday was an okay day, mom and I went to the store. She was concerned about not having toys for Kenneth to play with so we pick up a couple and he liked them. We mainly went there for groceries though. After we had lunch and then Kenneth went down for a nap, I worked on homework. Mom took care of Kenneth as much as he would let her. He's a momma's boy after being sick lately. Mom made me a yummy dinner I had been wanting. Then I went back to working on homework.

Sunday was a lazy day. Kenneth and I were going to head back to Rexburg after church. He got sick during breakfast and so that changed plans. We ended up staying and that was a good thing since the cramping started to pick up again. Saturday it hadn't been there. Mom again made me something I wanted for dessert. Texas Sheet Cake! Dad says I'm spoiled. Jared got home from Boise and we were able to spend time together talking. I needed that. I wanted to be back home with my husband that night. Having gone through this miscarriage and not having my loving, supporting husband there to hold me at night has been tough. I don't regret coming to mom's though. Tim wouldn't have been able to help as much.

I will gladly go home today to see him and get support from my friends when needed.